I Was; I Am: Harminder Paul
May 24th 2010 16:39
Harminder Paul
Well where do I start? I am 21. I am an artist (not a paid one) but an artist non-the-less. I work here in this little city called Wenatchee up near the cascade mountains. I'm beginning to appreciate the beauty of the place more and more everyday. But I hope to get out of here one day and move to a city and live life until change is required.
In the meantime I'm doing the bare minimum in terms of the direction of my life. I try to draw moments, the present moment...in the now. Which is harder then it sounds. You get sidetracked by past memories, mistakes, and just plain bad luck. And it doesn't work out all the time. And I'm not saying all my work is in the moment 100%. But thats what makes it good.
I do have a book called 'The Book of Idea.' Its a moment to moment autobiography of my life. From being COMPLETELY lost...to finding art...to finding meaning in that art. Then falling into the hole until I find myself...which just happens to be my demon....DAMNIT! Constant struggle of distancing yourself from yourself just so you can re-integrate with yourself again (uniting the opposites).
But anyways...I have this book (164 pages) which I would love to see published. So thats my hope right now.
So everyday I make some sort of 'attempt' at being... Which requires lots of digging in the underground pits of darkness of my past. And attempting to understand events and actions. Making them smooth out with my current perception of myself. Again much more difficult then it sounds.
I wouldn't say I am in control of my life...not in the sense I understand 'control' and its not 'your' definition of 'control' either. So you tend to float and loose yourself, like a boat in the ocean. My life is the endless cycle of being lost, finding a part of myself, then losing myself again. Its the constant cycle of light and darkness. Its a wave moving in time.
See his life in his 37 page portfolio.
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